My van door is fine now. All it was was part of the door off the runner. I was making all sorts of arrangements about this issue so I could still go everywhere I planned. No panicking involved just quickly moving into Plan B mode. I'm also going to make appoinments with the van vandors cause I will have to expect to make Plan B work there too. My first choice is Van Conversions in Allentown but OVR will not go for $125 an hour in labor so I will not just hope it works out. There's no indication that they'd negotiate to get my job. Go figure!

I wheeled over the corner of my DVD while it was inside the jacket. The disc is fine but there is a chunk off the bottom of the plastic. I wrote a note and hopefully it will all be fine and I won't get a fine. Then I drove the 2 books and 1 dvd back to the library where I proceeded to open the van door to ask a guy to take them inside and I broke the door! All other times I do things my self- insist on it but today I didn't. WHY? The door is still on the runner but it won't open enough for the lift to go down. Each time the door has to be moved a tiny bit by someone on the outside. Maybe if I fix the problem from the other side and bend the lift...

I attended a meeting like no other- it was sponsored by OVR no less. It was a forum about how they should spend their money during the upcoming year. I enterend the room, saw what looked like one consumer, picked up a few papers, including a 70 page packet filed with statistics and numbers, and thought "oh boy" I'll try hard to be patient for a little while. Well it turned out to be a really spirited discussion of people's ideas and comments to improve services for the upcoming year. The directors there were really interested in receiving feedback and discussing their many programs- some of which I never knew about. A major concern was letting more people know that OVR existed.

My endless OVR frsutrations continue. Not only are the jobs for which I apply not acceptable, they wont' give me a straight answer whether they even have the money to finance a set of hand controls. I realize now that part of there ongoing guideliness are partly just a procrastination tactic. Then trying to convince my parents that this is in vain is really wasted energy because they don't even understand the process when it does work. Now that it is VERY unlikely it will work at all is just beyond their comprehension. I'm done trying to explain it so I gave them a long lis of numbers to call to prove me wrong and basically tld them to have a blast.

Sometimes in order to move forward you must A) go backwards B) admit to and accept help. I was a vocaional counselor for most of my adult professional life. Why would I need help finding a job? Why can't I work with people who have disabilities? I have had one all of my life so I know what I'm doing. Well, that only worked when I was working... and I haven't been (appropriately) in over a year. It's time to face that fact and not continue to crawl while time speeds ahead. I must adopt a new attitude and with that aI have a new email. As the saying goes. "The only constant in life is change."