It's time to choose another path and see where that one will lead- growing infobility by disabling disability for the moment. I will create a class, or group, teaching people concrete ways to become more happy and that should make me more happy. I already met a professor of English who teaches the topic and published 16 of her own books. I will send her my pamphlet and manuscript after we discuss my "happiness project." It's all in the attitude and mine really needs and really will improve. Onward and upward in 2013!!